Running in Circles

I want to be a runner...I really do. I subscribe to running magazines (that I actually read), I download books on  running (I read those too), I join running clubs (never attend), I sign up for races (I walk them, if I show up at all). So now you've learned the root of my problem.

I HATE RUNNING!

I can't find my zen. I read about when people run, it clears their mind. When I run, I think of all of the things I  should be doing besides running. I read about how running relaxes people. I guess I'm an uptight runner because I run and two days later my shoulder is out of whack. I feel hopeless doing something so basic as putting one foot in front of the other and moving it. What a major fail!

So I have done it again...I signed up for another race believing my own hype...that "I think I can, I think I can" line. I've tried to train, but I was so disappointed in myself, I have now relapsed into my regular routine of finding reasonable reasons (a.k.a. excuses) to not run. So now the race is almost a month away and I will be stuck walking it...again.

So I am hoping that by blogging this next month, that I -- and you -- can hold me accountable. I will track my progress so that I can at least to attempt to run some of the race. (Hey, I'm not completely out of my mind, I know I can't run all of it).

So the goal today is to workout on the elliptical machine for an hour. Try to increase my cardio so I don't feel like I'm having cardiac arrest.

I'll check in tomorrow and let you know how it went.

Wish me luck (just don't say happy trails).